Ever since I was a kid, I have wanted to grow up and be an adult.
I was eager to get own my place, own my money, work in an office and make a change in the world! I wanted to know a lot, and be able to share my opinion with people.
My mom used to tell me that knowledge would come with experience, so I wanted to experience as soon as possible!
Life granted me part of that, and I “grew up” fast enough… But now, at
26, I still feel like I’m growing up. Sometimes I don’t feel like an adult at all.
Yes, I own my money, I have my own place, I converse with other adults without being deemed incapable (well, most of the time… because some people still think that they know everything)!
But I do not FEEL like an adult, at least like what I imagine being an adult is.
I love to discover things and learn, I love to meet people and make friends, I love to learn new languages and how to express myself more openly, I love candy, I love snow, I hate the rain and I take naps… I still need to Bloom!
I’m basically a toddler in an adult’s body… And it’s fine, I mean, to each their own…
But it’s also very scary, because whenever I try to imagine a future with kids, and a house, and a significant other… My toddler side prevents me from taking the steps to make it happen.
I do not feel fit enough, good enough, old enough, strong enough to deserve what I really want…
Does anybody else feel like this? Is there a remedy?
When will I stop growing up and start being a grown-up?
When will I be able to see the potential great mom, great wife, great worker, world changer, Wonder Woman that I can be?
If anyone has an answer, I’m all ears!!
See you soon,